I haven’t posted in a while, I guess life has been busy. I had some strange news on my Birthday this year (what great timing). I found out that the Mother I have never really known has Cancer. I feel tossed on actually how to feel, do I care, how could I not?
How do you care for a Mother you don’t really know, of course I could ask that of my Dad, how could I care for a man that gave up. My Dad supposedly had Cancer too, the only way I really know, is that years ago after he passed I received a medical bill from the Hospital collection department wanting payment. I hate it is he felt so alone in this world that there was no other way out – even though I have had those thoughts myself.
Though these days I don’t look for sympathy – I did when I was younger – I feel that life just has a plan for us – it may not be the plan we would like – but none the less it’s what we have been given. We can choose to let it decide our path in life or we can rise above and find the strength to do whatever it takes not to repeat the past or let it take control.
I’ve delt with things for years and have changed much over this time. I find pleasure in things that I know won’t let you down and find myself trying to hang onto things that can’t be held onto. I look around and I see so much selfishness in the world, people wanting more, treating others without respect and acting like they are above everyone else. I don’t understand why people just feel they are invincible to the things – what doesn’t catch up to you now – will catch up to you later. Nothing is ignored and nothing forgotten – I’ve had my moments in life when I was younger, I did my share of things I regret – though as an Adult, I try to be the best person I can be – no one is perfect – but we can all be better – try harder – give more – care more – respect more – love more.
Life is short – too short – make the most of it – words are cheap and actions deep.
Posted by Gaurav on June 21, 2009 at 9:20 am
Good post. Few days back I used to think I had a lot of problems. But now I guess after reading this I’d try to look at things with a better attitude.
Posted by jostheun on June 21, 2009 at 9:25 am
Thank you for your comment – yea I feel that things could always be worse in life – I do hope whatever you have going on – that it does get better for you.